So school's over....no more highschool...it feels very anticlimactic. Surreal. Kind of depressing. Not that I'm not excited to start university. For that I'm totally psyched. I want to start fresh, meet new people, make new friends, take classes I love, try new things and all that jazz. The thing that saddens me is what hapens before then. Summer. I hate summer. Well I didn't used to, but last summer was the worst time of my life...I wanted to just die. Honestly. And this summer could very possibly not be any different. 

Still looking for a  job, but nothing's working. I'm getting tired and frustrated. I want to just give up. I really only want a job to get money and have somewhere to go every day.  Yeah, I could do stuff with friends sometimes. Went shopping with people at Yorkdale today...it was boring,but it got me out of the house. Friends tend to be into being busy or doing things without me. Friends can also be dissapointing and majorly sucky sometimes. That's another reason that the ending of school feels confusing. Sometimes I want to see people for the rest of eternity and be friends forever, other times I never want to see some people ever again. I think the way it'll turn out is somewhere in between, and that's ok. 

Yesterday, being the end of school...is when I got my  marks. They were..let's not speak of them. The exams were pretty bad. The worst was bio...and I told everyone I would fail, and they wouldn't believe me. Well I didn't fail, but it started with a 6...but that's the same idea. At least mine was one of the better marks (Though that's sad) My average went down by 1% (the average of my top 6) so that's bad. It used to be 85, so since it's 84,  I lose 500$ of scholarship money. I know it's not that big a deal, but it is to me. I really don't want to tell my parents...they'll murder me. Frickin murder me. 

So I'm in a real nostalgia mood about school and friends and life in general, so I will add the lyrics of "For Good" from Wicked which ma good way. ake me sad....but in a good way. I need it to remember the good times.