So had 3 job interviews yesterday. THREE. Count 'em...1, 2, 3. The one for Aritzia was very long and awkward. They asked me to sell them a keychain. Then I got to keep the keychain in the end. I hope at least one of them works out. I really need a job, but I'm really tired of all the effort. If you walking along in promenade mall the amount of now hiring signs is outrageous though. So theoretically if these 3 don't work out (I hope they do) then I could try more. All this trying is exhausiting. 

Main reason I need the job is for the money, of course. Lots of stuff I need to pay for starting next year. Also applied for OSAP yesterday. They're gonna give me more money than I thought. I guess I'm poorer than I thought. But 4800 a year! That's a lot...more than enough for me. Though it makes me worry about paying it back. Hence the job. Yay jobs. Yay money. I've got to keep hoping. I hope when they say they'll call you. Sometimes they lie. At least they said by next week, so I'll know when they lie. 

Went to the movies today. With the family. I didn't like that so much. We saw kung fu panda. It had its moments I guess, but it was pretty stupid. I would have liked it more if i was 6. Too bad I'm not 6. Most of the kids in the theater seemed to be that age. They also were very loud and obnoxious and ran around a lot. I'm really not fond of kids. Don't know how i'll ever want any. By the way...one of the places i interviewed at was a little kid's store, and that place they seemed most desperate. So if I got a job there, i'd have to get used to it. 

Been listening to a lot of Avenue Q lately. I desperately want to see them this summer, but I lack the funds. It's fifty dollars for really really bad seats. And that's bad seats. If I wanted decent seats it would definately be more. Right now listening to 'It Sucks to Be Me'

Kate Monster: "I'm kinda pretty, and pretty damn smart. I like romantic things like music and art. And as you know I have a gigantic heart. So why...don't I have a boyfriend? FUCK. It sucks to be me , It sucks to be me.........."

*sighs* Just one of the many reasons it sucks to be me. There's a lot of them.

 Yes, that's right, I quit Wal Mart. No one who really cares about school could work until midnight on a school night. My marks are slipping as it is. Today was also grand opening. I'm never going there, they are the esscence of evil. I care about school, and I want to go to university, so once again i'm unemployed. I have a job interview on Saturday, but i'm kind of scared. I can't exactly use Wal Mart as a reference, because they hate me.  I really hope i get that job. It's a promenade, it closes at 9...so it's cool. I need the money. 

I other news, life sucks. It totally and completely sucks.

Everything sucks. Everything. I know, I know, I'm a pessimist, I should think possitive, yada yada yada. I've heard it all, okay? I can't help it. Everything just seems to suck right now. I know i've said this before a lot, but that was nothing. I think it's all these things that aren't horrible on their own, put together, until i can't take it anymore. 

Work = stress = hard =sucks.  School = same idea as work. And certain aspects of school are harder than i thought, or i'm not doing as well as i thought/would've liked. Worrying about university (especially how i'm going to pay for it) (cause whether right away, or through repaying loans, i will have to pay for it eventually. ) Then starting up a newspaper, which i need to do if i want to go to Ryerson, which i do, looks like it's not going to happen. Also, my friends made me late for work, and they didn't seem to even try to leave on time, when i told them. I hardly see them anymore anyways. I seem to be finding the negative in everything lately. And people don't really make that any better. 

I don't really wanna be all depressed again like i was most of the summer. Really, I don't. But everything seems to be going wrong for me lately. And i dunno how i'm going to handle it all. Work + school + things constantly not going right + all of my issues = not as easy as I thought. 

I was reminded of my old moto : Life sucks, and then you die. 

It does. Really,  it does.

Walmart is evil. There, is said it. And i don't even care anymore. There's supposed to be this mass oreintation thing thursday from 7-9 pm. Fine, i'll go, i'll miss Grey's Anatomy or CSI premier (haven't decided which) but i'll go. Only one problem. I have no idea where it is. It's neither at the training centre or the store. Apparently all Walmart is good for is yelling at me and making me feel like shit. Good job Walmart, ruin my self esteem, why don't you. Apparently, it was my fault for not being home when they called the first time...although it was Rosh Hashannah, and i kinda wasn't home for a couple days after they called either. Also, my idiot manager talks very quietly (more so than i do) so the number, i couldn't quite understand. I took a guess, called a number, and left a message. The person sounded like her (at least from the same country as her) but all it said was i have reached that number. Well...i know what number i've reached...i am the one who dialed it. Stupid. 

Anyways, i really don't know what to do, or who to call. The number i was given before for someone else doesn't work anymore, because they've moved from the training centre to the store. I really need to go thursday, it's important, but how am i supposed to know where to go? They could just tell me politely, instead of being such...well...w/e they're being ,it's probably a swear word. Then, if i don't go on thursday, i'm definately fired. But how do i go? This is stupid, getting stressed out over Walmart. Argh. They suck. 

I feel like not talking about that anymore...something happier...something happier...hm...Oh, today went to surprise party for Hilda. It was kinda lame, especially with the minimal people in the first hour, and not really a plan. It was definately a surprise though. And in the end, it got fun. All the fun people were the ones who showed up. Played tag...scared away the children. But i think i'm kinda sicker than i supposed. It hurts when i swallow. And also breath. Well...not hurts. Feels weird. All mommy's fault! But all in all it was fun. Better than Walmart. 

I'm supposed to start working next weekend, i so don't want to. At least it's only 4:30 - 8 pm...so doesn't ruin everything. I need to do fun things and just not think about Walmart anymore. I don't know what. Oh well. I'll think of something. Eventually. That is all i feel like saying at the moment. Until next time, 

Lau

P.S. Oh ya, Happy Birthday Hilda!